Lies

"For all poems written on the subject of unrequited love, there are so few on the pain of being the object of that affection. The truth is, its not love on which the strongest foundations are built, its the decency of merciful lies"

Self Introduction

First impressions make significant impacts. I am going to write 10 things about myself and it only seems fair that you get to know your blog superstar. 

              This is what i look like^

1. My full name is Ahmad Azhary bin        Azhar. I have a couple of nicknames. My family and friends refer me as Ary or Azhary. My best friend calls me kentut, monkey and basket. And a majority of people have a hard time pronoucing me name. 

2. I was born on the 5th of February 1997. Exact time would be at 6:53pm in SJMC. Took my mom 14 hours to push me out. I am a mere 172cm and i am full malay even though the way i look/act doesn't show it. I come from an Indonesian descent. I've been mistaken for Chinese, Indonesian, Philippines, Thai and British.  

3. Currently, i reside with my mother and 2 brothers. I am the oldest among my siblings. My parents are divorced but I still see my dad on weekends. 

4. The social media i have left is my instagram, facebook and ask.fm though i hardly use FB. Only reason i do keep it is to check on birthdays (i am sorry). Mostly

i am on Instagram and if you want to ask me stuff - go to my ask.

5. I get sick very easily. Usually i end up with high fever when i'm too stressed or when i participate in outdoor/extreme activities. The only jungle i can survive is the concrete jungle. I am NOT an outdoor person. I've been in the hospital at least thrice a year. 

6. I am a lover of all arts and fine things in life. I love reading, writing and binge watch movies/TV series. My favourite authors are Mitch Albom and Ellen Hopkins. I keep up with a lot of TV shows like Reign, The Originals, Glee, OITNB, Jane The Virgin to name a few. My all time favourite movies are Ferris Buellers Day Off, About Time, A Walk To Remember and Grease. I am a sucker for old music and movies as well. You can say i love to spend lavishly on fine dining and expensive clothes but the money i splurge is the money i saved up from my allowance. 

7. I am quick witted and sassy. I come

up with a lot of punch lines and most of the time i win in an argument. I'm not exactly shy but i'm not exactly outspoken, i am somewhere along the line. I love making new friends. I have horrible mood swings and i tend to be very emotional, (fact: i am very sensitive though i hate to admit it), i have a massive ego and i don't lower it just for anyone, if i do you must be pretty darn special. I make innocent things sound disgusting and perverted. I cuss like a sailor and i love to tease. When i'm close to someone, i tend to be clingy and annoying but my best friends do put up with me being needy (shoutout to Ammar, Nikki, Michelle and Sabrina). I can't swim and i HATE durian. 

8. I've only had 2 official relationships. I have entered the world of dating since i was 10. My first relationship lasted 2 years. My second one was almost 6 years though we have the on and off again situation. The rest are merely innocent courtships and flings. I've only truly been in love with one girl and i don't fall very easy. I am the dumper but i have been dumped twice. 

9. I am independent. Most of the time when i want to do something or go somewhere i don't depend on my parents. I like doing things at my own pace and i hate waiting. I am very determined and goal oriented. I am not very confident but i'm not afraid of speaking in public or go for interviews (fact: i passed my prefect interview when i was 13, i was selected for an exchange student program when i was 16 and i was the 5 from my state and i was also the school emcee for 2 years). I wouldn't say i'm intellectually gifted but i strive in language and reading subjects like English, History, Religion, Geography etc. I am not a gamer or am i into sports. The only game i play is the Sims. As for fitness, i like jogging and cardio work. My favourite sport is volleyball and i was in the school team in 2012. 

10. I love musicals, broadway, concerts and theater even though i can't sing or dance or act. I've been to a couple of musicals and it was pretty amazing. (fact: i've always wanted to be a dancer). The first concert i went to was Akon with my mom and my god mother. That's where my love for concerts begun. 

11. My passion for writing begun when i was 16 by watching The Carrie Diaries. I am an aspiring writer and i've had 2 of my articles published. One for a local newspaper and another in my school

magazine. 

That's 10 facts plus a bonus about me. What are 10 facts about you?

Welcome Home

With a new year comes with new resolutions and ideals for the upcoming months. This year however is slightly different than the others. I'm a high school graduate but i'm still waiting for my SPM results. I can drive legally. Most importantly, i am transistioning into young adulthood. 

As for this year, i am yearning to make a betterment out of myself and my environment. This year is going to be the year i'm finally free from my own demons. The year i am seizing for greater things and sculpting my future. 

I am now 18 and dazed at the moment. Temporarily i'm floating by the days and doing absolutely nothing productive. The thing i'm most looking forward to is my birthday. Being 18 is a much bigger deal than 16. I'm not sure why i'm really invested into planning an extravegant one this time round though i've never liked celebrating being a year older.

I'm also not working any part time jobs like everyone else as transport is an inconvenience from where i live. I swear i live at the end of the earth. My mom is paying me to run the house chores and play a partial parent and being her secretary and yes, i do get paid for being a domestic god. 

As for today, i was inspired to write a short story about a kid diagnosed with cancer and secretly fighting it without the knowledge of his friends or family. A little cliche but thats all i'm going to say. I'll post the story here.